Shifty Nights.... guess ill write my thoughts

Here i am, another night of random thoughts ravaging my senses, my mind, and my perspective. Thoughts about those people ive whole-heartedly helped as well as those ive engineered into calamity boycott sleep. The faces we carry throughout life sicken me as a necessary yet unchecked circumstance of being human. How many are truly ever themselves... how many even know what "themself" is and even further living it. My core rattles with resistance at the very thought of this perspective, we have many masks but is there a face? another useless question holding me in the night. The presence of this perspective signals "dangerous thinking" through my body, yet under whose charge? Last time i checked noone was here but me.... that being the case howww can there be dangerous thinking within myself... bitch slapped by another useless question on this not so starry night in chaos.

As i shift my perspective the world seems new, magical, warm, cold, and unchanging. Unchanging? yes unchanging, it seems completely the same irregardless of the circumstances experienced. The more i think of the word "same" the more I see its true depth. Nothing in this world is the "same" or "still" at any point and time as we commonly think of the word.. we know everything is in constant motion, our perspective changes the "reality" of the things we make contact with, and that we create our personal reality. with these constant pushes and pulls of influence which may be countless or simply uncountable change is our only constant in life, it is the bread and butter. We love it, we fear it, we worship it, we disown it, but in the end regardless of our inner world it is the same and cannot be otherwise else we would not exist. Without perspective there is no reality, no matter what we accomplish in eons a not so far wall in consciousness will mark our limit in understanding. wow i feel trapped in a box now :S this is gonna make sleep even harder, im hardheaded so naturally ill try to find a way around this "issue". But as humans ive noticed we like an answer even if its untrue, so how can i trust my own conclusion even with the agreement of other humans as equally blind as me. Is this a point beyond thought? If so would it be the beginning of truly being? Or the realization of what it is to truly be? now im running in circles -_-.

Anyways, in closing thoughts... well a revisit to a confusing tier of thought that will keep me up all got-damn night and abandon me in the sun -_- argghhh. Forgot about the point for a second, anyways. In closing thoughts imagine if for one second no a nanosecond perspective didn't exist... where would we be... where could we be as we are and does it matter that it was a nanosecond once it stopped. :O dangerous thoughts, this is definitely scaring my battalion of faces... how about you?

My new creation

Hmm not quite my thing but ill try something new.

This blog will be an expression of the mind and the thoughts I have on a daily basis... that being the case there will be no talk of the news, the world, or the problems "out" there. Im no pro at writing so ill study up on mechanics, grammar, and find more words each day should i decide to keep this up, i hope i do, in complete quality. My life is modeled around the theme do it right or don`t do it at all which may (does lol) attest to my current financial situation. so a little on me I guess...

Life for me is like a fizzy dream of chaos.. what should make sense makes no sense and what seems absurd makes total sense, leaving me quite confused daily. Distance is my current means of survival for my nature is to loving, caring, and "soft". I don't care about people's opinions unless they have a good nature, which isn't necessarily "good" in the traditional sense. I feel ALOT, and in more ways than one, which leaves me to be distant due to the fact that it tends to overwhelm (very sensitive >_<). Honor is of the utmost importance to me but sadly it seems to be a dead factor in these times, leaving me out of sync with most people from the start, meh. I love the hell outta my friends because i can trust them to be them-self, I test them ALOT >_<, and to do what they say they will do well, otherwise why say it eh. They arn't "perfect" but they are REAL which is most important by far. The friend pool does tend to be low but the quality of those friendships is more than some have in a lifetime, beautiful (what a blessing). For the most part I'm chill and love to think about the nature of reality if this is even that. Not into sports fanaticism, yes some sports are fun to watch but you wont ever see me in drunken fury over it... its just a game lol.

Well then thats little on me and my directive for this blog, wewt :). I have no idea on where this is going but meh we shall see.