Shifty Nights.... guess ill write my thoughts

Here i am, another night of random thoughts ravaging my senses, my mind, and my perspective. Thoughts about those people ive whole-heartedly helped as well as those ive engineered into calamity boycott sleep. The faces we carry throughout life sicken me as a necessary yet unchecked circumstance of being human. How many are truly ever themselves... how many even know what "themself" is and even further living it. My core rattles with resistance at the very thought of this perspective, we have many masks but is there a face? another useless question holding me in the night. The presence of this perspective signals "dangerous thinking" through my body, yet under whose charge? Last time i checked noone was here but me.... that being the case howww can there be dangerous thinking within myself... bitch slapped by another useless question on this not so starry night in chaos.

As i shift my perspective the world seems new, magical, warm, cold, and unchanging. Unchanging? yes unchanging, it seems completely the same irregardless of the circumstances experienced. The more i think of the word "same" the more I see its true depth. Nothing in this world is the "same" or "still" at any point and time as we commonly think of the word.. we know everything is in constant motion, our perspective changes the "reality" of the things we make contact with, and that we create our personal reality. with these constant pushes and pulls of influence which may be countless or simply uncountable change is our only constant in life, it is the bread and butter. We love it, we fear it, we worship it, we disown it, but in the end regardless of our inner world it is the same and cannot be otherwise else we would not exist. Without perspective there is no reality, no matter what we accomplish in eons a not so far wall in consciousness will mark our limit in understanding. wow i feel trapped in a box now :S this is gonna make sleep even harder, im hardheaded so naturally ill try to find a way around this "issue". But as humans ive noticed we like an answer even if its untrue, so how can i trust my own conclusion even with the agreement of other humans as equally blind as me. Is this a point beyond thought? If so would it be the beginning of truly being? Or the realization of what it is to truly be? now im running in circles -_-.

Anyways, in closing thoughts... well a revisit to a confusing tier of thought that will keep me up all got-damn night and abandon me in the sun -_- argghhh. Forgot about the point for a second, anyways. In closing thoughts imagine if for one second no a nanosecond perspective didn't exist... where would we be... where could we be as we are and does it matter that it was a nanosecond once it stopped. :O dangerous thoughts, this is definitely scaring my battalion of faces... how about you?